When THE heart stops...

2.26 am

Again.. writing isn't my passion..
But tonight is an exception..

I put my hand on my chest...
My heart is beating..
If it stops.. have i prepare?

I am too greedy...
Greedy with what the world has prepare for me..
Greedy with things so called 'duniawi'..

I know it will be hurt..
I know i will be in indescribable pain..
I'm lying if i say i'm not scared..
I just can't imagine..
If I leave this body..
Where will I be..

May Allah bless us with His Mercy..
May Allah forgive us for all our wrongdoings..
May Allah grant us Jannah..

Oh Allah... I'm scared if my heart stops beating...

Goodbye 2017..

2017 is coming to an end..

Hello 2018..

There are so many things that remain unattended in my bucket list..

So many things that i wish i could do for myself..
but being a working mom.. plus 4 kids..
weekend parent..
there's nothing much that i could do for myself..

really? 

WRONG!!

I AM WRONG!!

Its not because i couldn't do it..
Its because i wouldn't do it..
I didn't make time for myself..

I am getting another year older..
And my body and mind doesn't get any healthier..

I wish this 2018 would bring some light..

I wish to improve on my health condition..
I wish to improve on my body condition..
I wish to improve on my mental condition..
I wish to improve on my spiritual journey..

May Allah ease my road to success..
May Allah have mercy on me..

Aamiin...